2017
i do 12 hour shifts with 3/4 hours of travel time every day. i earn less than minimum wage because they dock money every hourly paycheck for the equipment. they have a whistleblower phone line that's a one-way ticket to getting fired.
im surrounded by really racist and disguting dudes. im gonna kill myself if i cant get out
i dont have time to do anything. i spend my few days off recovering.
some one tried to run me over with their car while at work. i broke my ankle and they got away scott-free. work is pressurring me to come back as soon as possible
Here I journal my empty days and how I'm wasting my fucking life.
I have instruments I don't play, pencils & brushes I don't use, friends I'm scared of talking to and no one to hold.
I watch dumb fucking shows and videos. I've sold all my hobbies just to make rent. I barely brush my teeth once a month. I haven't been to a doctor in a decade.
I'm scared to go outside and all I do is smoke fucking dope to empty my dumb fucking skull.
I fucking hate myself and you should hate me, too.
RATGIRL FEMCEL NEET
A creative writing project that journals my worst years in a heavily edited form.